Baby Vava-Bat + Photo Spam!

so! Recently on the 'Goth and More' blogging group im with, some of the girls have been posting up pictures from their baby bat days. everyone was so cute and at least looked like they were confident who they were, and were proud of it. Which made me think about my baby bat days. :)

it's only been the last year or two that i've discovered myself fully. i've had a lot of confusing years, and it never helped being the one everyone bullied in primary school and highschool.
i was the ugly kid. the fat kid. the joke of the class that was fun to provoke.
of those i was sure of. but it was my individual identity that i wasnt sure of.

I'd always known i was different. i never liked the preppy-mainstream way of things, but i liked the positive attention girls my age got. so at one stage, i tried to be like them, tried to be overly girly, and tried to get people to accept me. i had some very true friends in primary school (which im still very close to), but once high school started, that changed of course, and i became a third wheel - the one you encouraged to do stupid and embarrassing stuff just to get a laugh. feeling lost once again, i began to think life would be better without my existence. but i met a girl. she was small and adorable, with an asian background, and was very goth. we became very good friends, and i found a very great niche of people that i fit in with well. meeting her was a big change in my life, and i finally realized who i was/could be.
She was also the one than made me realize i liked girls. she was my first crush.

Everything spiraled around from that day and met back together to make me who i am today.
I am Goth.
I am Pansexual.
I am Happy and i am PROUD of who i am. <3

I loved the camera since i was young, and i always liked to be on the other side.
most of my poser pictures i believe, were me trying to subconsciously convince myself that i could be pretty, and the more pretty ones of myself i could take, the more i would actually start to believe it, and gain some confidence.
i never really realized just how much i used to take until i looked through all my old albums...and oh my gosh!!
I've cut down as much as i could, but i thought i'd try and paint a picture of myself and my journey with a big photo post..so here you go - my baby bat days. 15-18 ;)

Amy lee esque

Playing with blond wigs and fake piercings

Deciding if i should go blond with snakebites, haha!

I liked to play about with makeup a lot :P

ZZzzzzzzz

Managing to look a bit asian haha

My bathroom was my fave place to take photos

Looking all ghost like ;)

O_O

oh gawsh...my vamp fettish, haha!

Bruise like fang bites?

one of my faves that made me feel beautiful

First stages of baby bat :3

First stages of baby bat :3

bunny ears XD

me and one of my besties with fangs

me and one of my besties with fangs

Over exposure was my thing back then ;)

loved my natural auburn hair <3

like i said...i loved over exposure ;)

i always tended to pout or look grumpy :/

i've learned not to frown so much!

yay for my odd photo sessions!

trying to be a cute goth :P

HAHA! yes...i liked stuffed toys XD

What i wouldn't give to have my hair that thick again!!

Trying to be a glammy goth haha XO

One of my faves that gave me confidence

hehe my younger VF days :P

realizing im quite kinky....

a shoot after a friends birthday at a sex shop....

......i was under age......

.......they didn't know that XD

Loved this corset! wish i could find one like it :P

And there you go!! photos from my discovery days! :3 i've come a long way since then, but im going to save you from more photo spam/comparisons! i will do one later on if you guys deem it worthy of doing :)
anyway, im going to be late for work so i better scoot!! remember everyone, be confident in WHO YOU ARE!! :3

~VavaBeeb <3

Mothers Debt and an IDEA

ooo Havent updated in a while, so i though i'd give a quick one to let you all know im still here ;)

So, not alot has gone on this week, i'll be posting up a video of me doing makeup+hair soon...because i can ;) so i hope you all enjoy that!
on another note!
i've found this donation site, that helps you collect donations for WHATEVER! so, i've started one up to help my mother.....i know she doesn't like depending on people, so i thought, if i can help her in any capacity, i will DAMN WELL DO IT!!!!

My Beautiful Mother :3

 So, if you can, please donate! even if its only a small amount, it really will go a long way to helping her!! the one thing im worried most about this all is that she will loose her house, her possessions, her heart. she is an earthy, lover of all, goddess....and she doesn't deserve to live in constant fear.

Here is the link to her donation page!
Mums Debt Help

Please share it to anyone you can think of, who would want to help!! :)

and i've been pondering on something i would love my followers to help me out on, on this topic.
i was thinking, since there is such a VAST amount of wonderful bloggers out there, and i've seen some things like this done before.....that maybe it would help with donations.
i was thinking of doing a sort of prize, reward thing on all blogs and tumblr.
as in:
"Please share and donate to this cause! your name will be put onto the list, and a winner will be drawn at random!" sort of thing.
what do you think everyone? worth a shot? would you share this around?
and what sort of prize would it be?
i think something hand made, or maybe an array of different things, like a prize basket. would anyone be willing to help me out with it or contribute?

im just throwing around ideas at this point, so hopefully something will come of it!
if you guys have any ideas or contributions i would SERIOUSLY LOVE to hear them!

Thankyou all my beauties, have a wonderful night, and i will update with my next soon :3

~VavaBeeb <3

Ponderings of a Geek

I've been brainstorming for my birthday recently.
i want my 21st to be super awesome! but i've been torn between - should i have it hosted in a hall so everyone can just have a wikkid time? or have a themed party, which i always seem to have.
and it was a good friend of mine that ultimately decided it for me.....
SciFi theme >;D

I thought, stuff it! im not going to try and impress and satisfy everyone for my birthday, no, i want to have FUN and i want my guests to aswell!! so theme it is ;D

The only problem is.....i dont know where to begin with it! what decorations, food, music, etc?
luckily, im prepared in one way; my friend ebony is a Pinterest MASTER!! not only that, but shes a themed party legend aswell! go take a look at all her Themed Party Boards!! :D http://pinterest.com/regencygirl/

and luckily also, she has a scifi one! Cyber & Scifi theme~
and i've also started my own, hehe!Vava's board ;D

so many ideas running through my head!! if you have any, i would LOVE to hear them!! <3

oh, and i found this seriously awesome video on you tube!!! why cant we have a world/highschool like THAT!??! Gaming FTW!

This has made me seriously realize, i miss my gaming days!! i've just been to damn busy to play anything on console, computer or hand held :'( and it makes me sad! it also doesn't help that i dont have  a hell of a lot of friends who like gaming as much as i do, *pout*

i also seriously hate when i find people that do (mostly guys) and they take one look at me and go
"oh. your a gamer? playing farmville and barbie doesnt make you a gamer, you know that, right?"
.......are you F**KING kidding me!?? you do realize that sterio types doesnt mean shit and, you know, it's the 21st century, girl can do things you can, and we DO have rights!
i've pulled up more hours gaming than you've spent pissfarting around at what YOU call gaming.
but it doesnt sink in until i beat them to a bloody pulp, in game of course. it makes it all worth wile to watch them squirm and fumble for excuses as to why they just got Pwnd ^_^

some people are so frustrating!
im thinking i might kick back this weekend and play play some FF or something i can relax with and have fun.... i really do need to update my game collection tehe! <3

with that, my lovelies, i must leave. time for me to get ready, dress, and head in town for a photoshoot staring the eyes of mua ;D

keep trecking guys ;D  ,\\//

House sitting and Addictive cyber company!

SO! i've been away for a couple of days house sitting, i leave with two followers....come back to nine.
awesome :3
thankyou lovies!
MWAH! XD

so yes, for the past couple of days i have been house sitting my dads house. he works for a big building company up in perth, and only comes back on weekends. this time though, hes traveled to some weird named town far FARRRRR down south, so im looking after the house and my dog hes looking after; princess.
unfortunately, living out in the middle of no where, with no gates, and next to the highway, wasnt a very good place to live for a jack who loves to run and play, but who had to be tied up each day, so, father it was! that was a year or two ago. even though shes alone for a couple of days a week, they both love each others company, so it made my decision alot easier :P

going from tiny cottage to big house is a good change, it was like a little holiday :D i will hopefully be moving in there in a month or two anyway, so it's good to get used to the space.
and what did i do there, since i was ripped away from my computer?
Worked, and watched anime ;P
alot of anime......
two complete seasons.
Black cat (being watched for the first time) and Trinity Blood (an old fave of mine)
and i have to say, after getting through the first couple of episodes, black cat was AMAZING!!! XD

I also had my phone internet to keep me going. lucky! why lucky? because im addicted to a group of amazing people of facebook that make my heart do happy flips.....
Goth Bloggers :3
i've just recently joined, and i feel like i've found HOME!! i said to myself recently that i need change, need to meet and make some amazing new friends... and i have XD
TIS AWESOME! PWAH PWAH PWAH! 
I'd have to thank my amazingly beautiful and wondrous friend dani for this! she joined me up, and i couldnt be happier! shes one of my best, closest and all round AWESOME friend! you should toddle on over and check her out :3 Dani nom-biscuit ;P  <3                      

i liked them so much i showed them my boobs, HAHA!
oh what fun :3 but im glad my being disconnected from said computer hasn't led me to be completely disconnected! but i wasn't able to draw more pictures for everyone.
which i am able to do now though! after my big day at work tomorrow :/
i shall show what i have done so far......once i figure out how to make this damn image inserter STOP INSERTING THEM IN THE MIDDLE OF MY POST, AND NOT LETTING ME MOVE THEM DOWN TO THE BOTTOM OF MY PAGE!!! *huff huff*

so, just wanted to give an update on whats been up, since i just got home ;) sorry it's all jumbled and over the place, i'll get better! might do a bit more tomorrow if im not too tired!!
sweet dreams~<3

New Beginings

Hai there gaiz! ^.^
First blog entry on blogspot for a looong time. i used to have a few blogs here, but after a while, some things come up, you cant keep track and you forget....well, in this case, i forgot them completely, including the names...so here we are!! XD

Just some quick things on me i guess, if you know me IRL, you probably wont need to read this ;) for others, here it goes!

*I'm a Red head, dyed race car kind of red. my natural color is Auburn though, so technically, im still in the ginger category haha :D
*I identify as Pansexual. i dont think i've said that outloud to anyone before, only a few people know my orientation. but what the hell, im sick of hiding it! male, female, 3rd gender, trans, whatever! come at me bro! seriously though, i prefer to be known as pansexual rather than bisexual, because gender doesnt mean a thing to me, love is love, as it should be. but for those who are curious to know, if you must; i would say im about a 4/5 on the kinsey scale. there. im out. :)
*I have a slight obsession with Japan. anything Japanese, and you will have me squealing with joy! growing up i always thought of myself as an Japanese girl stuck in an Australians body ;)
*I also have a slight obsession with Harry Potter. yes, im a Potterhead ;) one of the lucky few who got to grow up reading the books, and also experiencing the films each year, being the same age as they were, living the story in a surreal sense.
*I have a blue UV thunderbolt tattoo on my forehead....yes, you did hear that right :p it has special meaning other than it connecting me to my fandom.
*I'm and anime and manga geek. my style of drawing is also based on it. i could read and watch them for hours on end, and the most read category you will see me read is.....Yaoi ;)
*I am an artist, of both digital and mixed mediums, and i've studied art in TAFE for two years.
* I'm a free lance Photographer and sometimes model. i enjoy it oh so much!
*I've been Belly dancing since i was 10, and the dancing flame still burns as brightly now. my next door neighbor and i have started a south west gothic bellydance group recently, and are drowning in the possibilities :D
*I'm a teeny tiny bit on the crazy side... just a bit ;)
*I'm pretty much eclectic in every sense, in everyTHING, but i do identify as goth. i may not always be wearing goth, i might now listen to goth music (even though  do alot) and i might not go "oh hai, im goth!" but i am. goth is not just a fashion statement, it is a way of self, a mind set swimming in the darker side of humanity, THAT is what i am. and im sure alot of you would be sevearly disturbed if you could reach into the inner sanctum of my mind. and im really not joking about that.
*On a lighter note! I'm a fun lover and adrenaline junkie! think of the scariest ride, or the most death defying plane jump you can think of, and i would do it, and be giggling gleefully all the way! i love love to party, and enjoy letting my silly side go, with the help of alcohol ;P but alot of the time, i seriously dont need it. people have thought i was drunk when im stone cold sober ^.^ and they think that quite offten!

Well! i think i'll stop rambling here, or you'll be reading for months! i'll do another one down the track if anyones interested in more ^.^ if you have some questions you'd like answered, dont hesitate!! i look forward to it!

Mwah!
~Vava <3